So what?
I take some medications that you can't pronounce
Half of you just can't relate
so all you do is straight denounce.
Most the time I'm down
never seem to shake the doubt
'Fore I go to sleep
I got some pill bottles pour em out
Anxious drowning
People surrounding me
Got me just begging please
Stop it just let me free
crying I start to scream
Why can't you let me be!?
Calling me weird,
like this mental illness be stopping me
but
I ain't no different
I'm Drunk but still sippin
yeah, My Moods they be flippin
yeah, I'm Tortured but gifted
yeah, My Eyes staying shifty
yeah yeah, I'm Feeling so iffy
And nah I can't work
Panic attacks got me taking fifty
Milligrams of something new
almost every fucking month
Doc can't seem to get it right
but knows that something might be up
No this ain't a bullshit front
Stop your faking, bitching bruh
Nah This ain't the life you want
I'm Smoking shaky fingers tryna roll a blunt

Got hate all my life
never got no fucking rest
Bullies beat me in classroom
cut me with a knife
failed the rest, Ditching with the "bulletproof vest"
As they shoot me in the head
Lay me in the grave; I wake again
"God dammit"
Disappointed and dissatisfied
I hate the fact, I'm still alive
Despite the times that I have tried
Just know that when I finally die
these Weird looks, those strange "oh"'s, and stigmas
are final thoughts up in my mind

"Oh my god man he's weird"
"Hear me talking big ears?"
"Man he's mental steer clear"
"Columbine up in here"
why is that always the fear?
Like I'm some fucking monster
faking fucking therapy for fear
I might just jump out my skin one day and fly away
then they talk about you like
"he was such a grace to have In class"
man you can't take back
all the fucked up shit you say
just cause they bury me sad like that.