And How do feel when I'm not around? And How does it feel when you're coming down? Do your fingers remember the outline of mine so profound in love And Now we are nothing Played all my cards but to me you were bluffing Walked out the door Now I see your true colors Thought we were cuffing You Showed me I'm nothing now Now I just smoke to escape ya Fill up my lungs with Tobacco and paper Worship your feet you're no god, just my savior My heart and my soul they just ache when I say your name Oh woah Oh woah how do you feel when I'm not around? How do you feel now?

So what? I take some medications that you can't pronounce Half of you just can't relate so all you do is straight denounce. Most the time I'm down never seem to shake the doubt 'Fore I go to sleep I got some pill bottles pour em out Anxious drowning People surrounding me Got me just begging please Stop it just let me free crying I start to scream Why can't you let me be!? Calling me weird, like this mental illness be stopping me but I ain't no different I'm Drunk but still sippin yeah, My Moods they be flippin yeah, I'm Tortured but gifted yeah, My Eyes staying shifty yeah yeah, I'm Feeling so iffy And nah I can't work Panic attacks got me taking fifty Milligrams of something new almost every fucking month Doc can't seem to get it right but knows that something might be up No this ain't a bullshit front Stop your faking, bitching bruh Nah This ain't the life you want I'm Smoking shaky fingers tryna roll a blunt Got hate all my life never got no fucking rest Bullies beat me in classroom cut me with a knife failed the rest, Ditching with the "bulletproof vest" As they shoot me in the head Lay me in the grave; I wake again "God dammit" Disappointed and dissatisfied I hate the fact, I'm still alive Despite the times that I have tried Just know that when I finally die these Weird looks, those strange "oh"'s, and stigmas are final thoughts up in my mind "Oh my god man he's weird" "Hear me talking big ears?" "Man he's mental steer clear" "Columbine up in here" why is that always the fear? Like I'm some fucking monster faking fucking therapy for fear I might just jump out my skin one day and fly away then they talk about you like "he was such a grace to have In class" man you can't take back all the fucked up shit you say just cause they bury me sad like that.

Are we just dreaming Or are we just feeling alone Are we just dreaming Or am I just feeling this low Are we believing everything that they just showed me I feel Facetious For laughing while I feel this lowly Am I just sleeping Please tell me ill wake up real soon Nightmares are dreams where I'm stuck here up inside my room Don't seem to wake up Keep hopin' I wake up real soon But I never do I'm always just stuck in my gloom I just wonder why I feel like I'm losing my mind all my life I just cannot die Keep banging my head on these white walls white (x2) Why why why why Are we just dreaming?

Anxiety up in my fucking mind though Doc tells me that I need to reconcile yo' So I'm out here living life just tryna Go go Go go Go go yeah (x2) Top five like I'm tugging on your mind woah One guy fucking snuffing out my light no Coming back to me better recognize hoe Feel high weed anxious bout the cops so I left the party cause I'm never stuck in line no Say hi to the shaky fingers front row Fine dine, I ain't tryna let my cash grow Never stop thinking bout how I just wanted more Time flies like I'm winging out my flow yo All black all the time like I was a crow No meds can't seem to sleep that blows Talk my jaw off All this fucking energy Oh oh oh oh yeah Anxiety up in my fucking mind though Doc tells me that I need to reconcile yo So I'm out here living life just tryna Go go Go go Go go yeah (x2) Now I ain't got a still muscle in my body Angry quick so i gotta load the shotty shotty Talking fast while I'm touching up and down got shawty on me like I'm tryna run the fucking town uh Filling up bags yeah I be up on my vapor Spending money don't have have some salmon an capers Stop your bitching breaking bad blue skies an We the bakers Then I break you off bad fuck around and see you later Driving downtown can't seem to sleep again but that's alright Turn the music up Ill rape the pen Super man writes Cause yeah I'm super fucking ill Jittery as hell you already know the fucking deal yeah Anxiety up in my fucking mind though Doc tells me that I need to reconcile yo So I'm out here living life just tryna Go go Go go Go go yeah (x2) Go go Go go Go go yeah

All this depression I find Cant seem to get this fog out my life All my friends think that I'm fine Never show them any other signs I always feel like I'm dying Smile on camera then off I'm crying When did this hole grow inside Why can't I find any of my shine When did my happy go blind Can't see anything but suicide meet all my dead friends with time Bury me in that grave right beside Lay in bed all of my life Voyage of time is a fickle one When did my pain become life Mood going down with the setting sun Mood going down with the setting sun yeah Mood going down with the setting sun yeah yeah

I don't know Why I ever let go All I know Is I'll never let go again I don't know What the future might hold All I know Is I'll never see you again Losing your friends and your patience Trying to hide yeah you're fakin Twitching and fighting you cannot fight all this vermin that's just stuck in your brain yeah Sadness just filling with vices Trying to tell them you're fine but Without you up in my brain I tend to feel like I'm just lying to stop crying I don't know Why I ever let go All I know Is I'll never let go again I don't know What the future might hold All I know Is I'll never see you again Do you think about my lips when Yours meet while you climb up on him Kisses land up on his lips while he touches your hips Can't stop seeing these visions Slapping my head please just stop it Tying my noose my fear dropping Watch me climb up on this chair Grip my note with a glare as I'm losing my senses I don't know Why I ever let go All I know Is I'll never let go again I don't know What the future might hold All I know Is I'll never see you again I don't know Why I ever let go All I know Is I'll never let go again I don't know What the future might hold All I know Is I'll never see you again